Thursday, October 15, 2009
So damn busy.
Everytime I have class, its exhausting. So I did what comes naturally. Fell sick. Coughing like mad, bad throat, sniffing. Basically throat infection. And I managed to drag Dear down with me. Now the poor guy's sick but forcing himself to work.I myself snuck out of home to work (Mum and Dear were both pestering me to take another day's MC), and spent the whole day suffering. :(
But plans are coming along smoothly, and its hard to keep the huge excitement bubbling inside of me from bursting out. Dear is of course, not as excited as me, since its really a girl thing. If men could get away with just a quick one at the R, they would.
TOO BAD BOYS. Not many girls would let their guys off if they didnt treat this seriously, esp if their friends had big fancy ones. Think about it this way, even if your girl does agree to a simple ceremony, you wouldn't hear the last of it for the next 50 years of so. You'd have to endure stories to your kids about how generous, kind and stupid their mums were for throwing away their dreams of a fancy celebration, and how stingy daddy was. Of course, the girl also has to be practical. Spend within your budget, at least. And even if your girl lets you off, your parents might not. So just grit your teeth, be a man.
Well, I'll talk more later. Gotta work. Ciao!
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lalala `
Friday, September 18, 2009
So I broke down at work again. Just couldn't take the unbelievable things that were happening.
I know that my wild mood swings stem from being mentally and emotionally flayed at work, but somehow I can't seem to leave work alone.
So this weekend although I was planning to work tomorrow, I've decided to take a much needed break, and time-out to mug as well (hopefully). I'll try not to think of work the whole weekend and I hope I'll feel a little fresher next Tuesday, where certain unpleasant things will happen.
Need. To. Relax.
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lalala `
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
I'm really lucky.
I'm so thankful that Dear has been by my side all this while, holding my hand and sheltering me when I just feel like giving up. He's entirely too soft hearted to push me past my limits when I'm on the verge of cracking, but his being there is the greatest comfort I could ask for.
Thanks.
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lalala `
Thursday, September 10, 2009
I had a dizzy spell yesterday. The road seemed to slip sideways and sometimes the room would spin. I couldn't walk steadily.
So tired. So stressed out. Need a break before I collapse.
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lalala `
Friday, September 04, 2009
Oh man.
Someone help me out of this hellhole.
I feel like I'm slowly breaking down. We haven't stopped reeling from the sudden increase in work, when another big shock comes. Someone tenders, and of course, there's all that stuff about how appreciated we are, blah blah, but too bad, you have to take up even more work, and no added benefits of course.
I'm at the end of my tether. I don't get through the day without tearing up at least once in frustration, stress and bitterness about how our benefits are held back due to the "recession". My eyes are perpetually tired and dry, my back aches, I only eat out for lunch once a week, sometimes never. And i still need to study. My energy is low
I'm so tired. There are too many files, too many deadlines, I can't handle it anymore. I feel myself edge towards a nervous breakdown where I'm just swallowed by work.
I'm slowly unravelling....
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lalala `
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Neil Gaimen's Anansi Boys is fabulous.
Wonderfully funny with one of the most original plots I've ever encountered.
I can't believe I still have time to read. I'm barely breathing as it is.
Sigh. I should study. :(
But there's just too much work to do!
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lalala `
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Fleeting memories of a child.
Putting on my shoes myself, loved ones exclaiming.
Dressing up at a play.
A birthday cake sent to my school, forgotten candles.
Splashing in a torrential rain.
Another birthday cake, sugary pink icing.
A long bus ride to get new spectacles, not talking much.
A trick played on my grandmother by my grandfather.
Golden hoop earrings.
A bubble chair.
Spilling Ice Cream soda.
Eating together.
Watching a documentary together, all of us entranced.
We forget too much.
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lalala `
